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i was falling down
but i never hit the ground
i jumped off the top
to make the pain stop
i felt the wind rush past my face
my body falling free through space
i felt all of my fear
leave my mind as the ground drew near
as my free fall came to an end
i found myself on the roof again
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Top 11 Reasons Not To Get A Tattoo – My Retort
The following is a letter I wrote in to the Gwinnett Daily Post about an article titled “Top 11 reasons not to get a tattoo” that ran in today’s paper.
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i come home late at night
with all this poison in my veins
i am getting sick and tired
of living with this pain
i live each day in fright
of what they forced into my brain
but now i am inspired
to start all over again
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somewhere in this world
is a person who will care
a person who will love me
a person who will share
somewhere in this world
is someone i can hold
someone i can love
to be my very own
i just hope one day
i will find her
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what do you think
when you see me
does your heart sink
when we meet
what do you see
when i walk by
how do you see me
through your eyes
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i live within
you live through me
i lurk beneath your skin
you see me when you bleed
slit your wrist
and set me free
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Why I Hate Fireworks Shows
Last night I went to see my first fireworks show in I don’t know how many years. I’ve never gotten any enjoyment out of them. When I was little I was always forced to go and when I did go, I saw the same thing. People would go to these shows, play their patriotic songs, wear their American flags, and “Ooh!” and “Aah!” at the fireworks. To me it was all just a guise, a way for people to show off and say “Hey, look at me! I’m patriotic!” Where are these people during the rest of the year?
Such was my feeling with church, and precisely the reason I don’t go nowadays. That’s another subject for another post though.
My wife asked me if I wanted to go last night and I reluctantly said yes, mostly as an excuse to get myself out of the house. We found a spot in town and settled in with our folding camp chairs and waited.
During our wait, and I have to share this, a police officer pulled over a guy on a motorcycle. Talk about embarrassing! I can’t imagine how embarrassed I’d be if I got pulled over in front of two hundred people. After he got his ticket, he rode off past us and was smiling and waving at everybody. I found that rather funny.
The police car was past the point where the number of lights becomes obscene. There were so many lights that the car itself may as well have been one big giant light bulb. It was just ridiculous! I’m seriously wondering if someone could sue the county had they seen that and gone into an epileptic seizure. I felt I just had to comment on the matter. I explained “The county doesn’t have enough money in its budget to fund this or that because they spent it all putting more lights on their police cars!” That got a nice laugh from everyone within earshot.
Anyway, back to the point of the story. I did enjoy the fireworks. There’s just something about explosions that intrigues me. I prefer the uncontrolled over the controlled but nevertheless, they’re explosions. I saw the same people with their flag t-shirts and there was even a truck behind us with its door wide open that had the radio tuned to some radio station playing patriotic songs. I tuned it all out the best I could and just watched. The beauty of the fireworks consumed me, all but the stupid smiley face ones and heart shaped ones. I hate those.
I watched and then I started to feel it, the gentle pounding of the shock waves against my chest. First you see the explosion, then you hear the bang, then not half a second later, you feel it. I don’t know what it is that gets me going when I feel that, but it makes me feel good inside. Just as I was starting to enjoy this little meditative state, finale came and it was over.
Ten bucks says those people are nowhere to be found today. The flag t-shirts will be sitting in their hampers and after they’re washed, folded up and tucked away in a drawer until next year. The radio stations will relegate all of their patriotic songs to their special “Fourth of July” dust bin folder. People will get back on their high horses about how they don’t like President Bush and how we need “change” and how the war in Iraq was for oil and that Saddam never did anything to us. Everyone will go back to being their two-faced selves…until next year.
it is filling me
it is killing me
this possession
my obsession
i want it to stop
it found me
it bound me
it caught me
it fought me
and it won
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How To Win Friends And Influence People
I finished reading How to Win Friends and Influence People by Dale Carnegie today. Sitting at the lake at Fort Yargo State Park today during my lunch break, I finished up the last six chapters of this book. I spend three days a week at the park during my lunch break to partake in the peace and quiet and solitude as well as a little reading or fishing; angling for the non layperson.
Originally published in 1936, my particular paperback copy was published in 1965 and was owned by my grandmother’s second husband. I hear he was a great man and I think this book had a lot to do with it. He unfortunately passed away before I was born, as did my paternal grandfather. I would have loved to have known them both.
This is truly a great book, everyone should read it. I am saddened though that I didn’t discover this book earlier on in life as I have learned a lot from it. I started applying its principles over the past couple of weeks and have found that they actually do work.
I’m too lazy to open my own and type it all by hand, so I’m electing to take the cheap way out and copy/paste it from Wikipedia.
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